Styles is spending the week with my grandparents in Tallahassee so there won't be much to cover this week but I do have an update from last week.
I believe it was Friday and Styles had spent much of the day watching TV and playing his DS out of sheer boredom and the fact that I was working. Normally, this is not acceptable behavior but I don't trust this world enough to let him go outside alone. He did spend some time reading but for the most part, watched TV. I eventually asked him to please stop watching TV and to pick up his book and read or to go play with his toys. He got very upset with me because "Phinneas and Ferb" was on and he wanted to finish watching it. I gave him a 5 minute countdown and when five minutes was up, I told him to please stop watching the TV. When he kept sitting there, I turned it off and it resulted in a flood of tears. He went over to the futon in our play area and began banging his head on it. I have NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER seen him act that way and aggression is not something that I've ever had to deal with, with him. There have been times when I knew he wanted to hit something but he always finds another outlet for his anger and all-in-all, is not an angry child, nor is he violent by any stretch of the imagination. I was really disturbed by his behavior but instead of flying off the handle and spanking him like I would have normally done, I asked him to follow me into his bedroom. I explained to him that it was okay to be upset but that banging his head on ANYTHING was absolutely not acceptable. We talked for a few minutes and I gave him a hug. I don't know if he'll do that again BUT I worry about more aggressive behaviors. What if that had happened out of frustration at school and instead of a futon, on a desk?
It really broke my heart and I cried about it for a while that night. I am completely realistic about the fact that any medication is going to have some sort of adverse side effect but he has been super sensitive since beginning this medication. As soon as it begins to wear off, he becomes maniacal and everything affects him. It's so, so sad. We go back to the Psychiatrist on August 10th and I am going to let her know everything that has been happening. I fully believe that she will take him off of this medication and let him take something else once she hears about his aggression and breakdowns. I just wish I could hold him and cuddle him and protect him from himself and the world. But I can't. I have to let him grow and learn and experience growing pains. I hate it. I don't want to go through anymore and this is just the beginning. But after seeing the wonders that Adderall has done for my husband, I am fully aware of the fact that Styles needs something. I know that we will find a solution, or a combination of solutions for him.
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